This had started out being one of those posts where I recap the year and tell you all the good things and the bad things that happened. I changed my mind. No sense living in the past, except to say that I had the best year with my art and I appreciate everyone who supports me. I hope next year is just as good in that aspect of my life. As for the rest of my life? Well….
Marilyn Monroe once said something like “sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together”. 2012 is going to be the year better things fall together. Here is how it’s going to start: A Cherry Dress.
For small business Saturday, my sister and I went to a local boutique, where I bought a cherry dress. It is a beautiful dress, made in America. It was so beautiful that my skinny sister bought the same one. J I have been looking at this dress for a while, but I was afraid to even try it on. I’m shaped a little odd and most of the clothes do good just to cover most of my parts. I usually just shop out of necessity. But this dress? My sister made me try it on. I had to suck up all my insecurities and self-shame and put on this dress. And this was after her perfect frame fit perfectly into the same exact dress. It took every ounce of inhibitions I had left to go into that fitting room. It is totally unlike anything I have worn in years or ever. It’s a halter dress. I don’t even have the right kind of unmentionables for this dress. It doesn’t hide my chest, or my arms or any of the other parts I try to cover with sweaters etc.
When I put this dress on, I am sure I looked like a one of those commercial wrapped cars, but I felt like Marilyn Monroe (sure shorter and rounder with roots showing, but still). I purchased my dress. And I bought it a size smaller than I needed. Since that day, I have been trying to eat better and exercise because I will fit into that dress. And I will get up the nerve to wear that dress to work and to the grocery store and to vacuum my carpet if I so feel like it. I am going to buy red heels to wear with that dress. I am going to show my knobby knees and my chunky calves in that dress. I am going to take a picture of me in that dress and do something I have never done… post it right here on my blog. And I will tell you something else, I have already picked out another dress. And its even a size smaller than the cherry dress because once I fit into that cherry dress, I am going to start working to fit into my other new dress.
This dress is how I am going to turn my life around in 2012. I am going to leave my comfort zone to see if things don’t fit a little better out there. Too many times I opt for the frumpy sweater to hide my insecurities. I think people around me can pick up on that, and then it’s like a feeding frenzy. And I am not just talking about dresses. There are people out there who take advantage of the fact that some of us are afraid to leave our comfort zones. They see it as an opportunity to bully or as a way to make themselves seem bigger than us. Those people are going to have to deal with my red heels and bare arms in 2012.
I challenge everyone out there to buy a cherry dress and wear it.
